Sad to say it..

Another month has passed since i wrote in here and by god alot has changed. over the past few weeks while ive enjoyed my time in christchurch and i love being here, i couldnt help myself from getting homesick. it hit me like a truck.. one day out of the blue i was like i miss my mum. i miss cleo. And when i get that way i tend to draw into myself and keep quiet. i tried not to let it get to me, or to show it to others but i didnt do a very good job. my partner noticed it straight away and so did my best friend, but she ddnt want to push me into saying anything. then one night i wrote my parents a long email... telling them how i was feeling and what i was thinking of doing and what were their thoughts on the matter. they told me to stick it out a little bit longer and then if i still wanted to come home then i would. but in the end the decision would be up to me. i decided that i wanted to come home.. so the next day i got up the courage to tell my best friend and her family- i was staying at their house. They took the news very well, and only wanted me to be happy. so that night i went online and brought my ticket back to australia. i fly out on sunday, which is the 1st of february.

ive been packing my stuff back up, making sure i have enough room for the things that ive brought whilst being here, lucky for me i have plenty of room to squish my giant teddy, :P

Yesterday whilst at the local mall i decided to buy some tops. i havent really relished in spending money on anything apart from food while being here so i thought i should treat myself. i got 2 tops that were the same, just a different colour - a white and then a violet purple. they have frills down the front and a tie at the back. and then another purple top thats more like a peasant dress kinda thing. theyre all very pretty. so now the only dilemma is what to wear on sunday lol.

I'm still going to write on here, when i remember, just might have to change the title to the blog now that i wont be in new zealand anymore.

xxx